I Alone Don't Know

The world seems clear and categorisable for many people. Situations easily explained, positions tightly held.

This is not the case for me. For me the world is muddy and confusing.

Adrift, I cannot hold to one perspective.

And I might use words, but they do not capture my meaning.

"Other people are excited,
as though they were at a parade.
I alone don't care,
I alone am expressionless,
like an infant before it can smile. Other people have what they need;
I alone possess nothing.
I alone drift about,
like someone without a home.
I am like an idiot, my mind is so empty. Other people are bright;
I alone am dark.
Other people are sharper;
I alone am dull.
Other people have a purpose;
I alone don't know.
I drift like a wave on the ocean,
I blow as aimless as the wind. I am different from ordinary people.
I drink from the Great Mother's breasts" (Lao Tzu)